i dare say, i'm from england...arrrr....

i have no idea why but i feel like i've lost my soul again, but i must say anger always inspires mi sense of purpose once again. Time and time again i show the kindness of my heart but there are those who causally mistake it as me being a pussy! Trust me, i'm a guy whose tolerance is rather high (I believe Someone knows it better den any1 else, Ask her). To those who wanna test mi fuckin patience, i have this to say: Dun't be surprised when you see the other side of me!

As i walked home today, i passed by a funeral service and thought to myself, how would my funeral be?? weird and random but den again i wondered to myself if the elderly lady in front of me had thought of the same thing as her glance caught sight of the familiar bright yellow canvas lining the void deck.

Facts of a normal workday suppressed into bite-size bullets, in no particular order:

• Adam just bought a new lotus elise
• Cleaned up TR3 with Jacq, Huiwen and Aaron
• Gossiped wif Auntie Saro
• Found out some of my hall mates are working over at the Novena center
• Had a pleasant convo wif a parent
• Had a NOT so pleasant convo wif a parent
• Smiled at an hot office chick in the train cos we both saw something hilarious at the same time
• Practiced for my upcoming audition as an Intro speaker
• Enjoyed a sumptuous Katsu Don at Market for lunch

I've realized how much of a strong character i am but when it comes to the matters of the heart, mi defenses are paper thin! Deep inside i'm just a kid who just wants to sit on the breakwater and watch the sunset. My social batteries are running out again. Perhaps its about time, i should charge them....or should just replace them with new ones....perhaps!......perhaps??? haiz...

I'm angry with you, because.....

my camps are finally over and i must say the feeling now is....not really estatic!! why?? cos i can forsee the impending crap tt is about to rain on mi carpet-grass-laden head. yesh rite now me n huiwen are in the the "eye-of the-storm"...the upcoming Modules 2 & 3 are just waiting to burst out wif a multitude of kok-ups.

I must say I'm terribly disappointed with the coaches. In particular, Benjamin Ong (programme director of the last camp). why?? cos simple instructions weren't followed. i explicitly told him on the last night just before i left that just help to clear up evthing into boxes and pile them up into some corner. Was tt so hard to understand? when i came back the next day, auntie saro had to complain to me how much of a mess that place was...low and behold, it was a disaster indeed coaches left behind evthing that wasn't theirs, chairs were just piled in the middle obstructing the way. haiz and these are the people who supposedly are past graduates of a programme tt promises to inculcate a sense of responsibility. What i saw was nothing short of pure disrespect to other full-time staff and blatant disregard for the next users of the room(WHO HAPPEN TO BE THE VERY NEXT MORNING AT 7AM.)....coaches do you know how many people in the office complain about you guys?? and after that last incident i'm sorry but i can't find any more excuses to cover ur asses. Stop acting like kids in a friggin holiday camp and act more like mature role-models! The fact that 3 trainers had to PERSONALLY clean up YOUR ROOM for YOU just goes to show how bad the situation is. the following photo just speaks a 1000 words:

 

Coaches, I'm disappointed in you guys...but den again probably your skins are too thick to actually think of what i've said so far....den again i'm sure there are still some of you who feel that you could have done more! for those few, i applaud you!

U tink we 5-star hotel is it??

Parents these daes are seriously getting tooo much man!! Basket just to wait outside for 5...nigga pls!! 5 MINS....and they start kp-ing abt how disorganised AKLTG is like helooo...wad u expect us to throw rose petals on the floor and serve u ice cold drinks?? how abt a smackdown too so it'll knock some sense into ur impatient singaporean minds...jeez put urselves in our shoes man?? do u see a whole friggin platoon working to serve u?? Pardon me but we're not running a high-class hotel service k!!

Jeez aniway with that said....i'm realli tired of bitchin abt work and i'm kinda numb towards problem parents. Finally down to my last camp....and already i'm predicting another storm cloud just brewing in the distance when we start handling the SCP cases...god forbid i'll be quitting when that washes ashore. seriously, i've made up ma mind...it aint worth it no more...i'm a happy person...a stress-free smooth operator! besides i realli need to take a break b4 i head back to sch in Aug. School....hmmm...well mi results weren't tt gd but den again i've had worse. all i can do now is plan ahead and and make sure i stick to mi game plan!

if i mite add....DUFFY RAWKS....smmmmoooooooooth sensual neo-soul for the soul...it just takes da pain away! haiz.....and although it takes away the aching physical pain and eerie silence of the lost memories just echoes thru mi heart..haiz so many things, people and places i miss...

I dunno why but all of a sudden i have this uncanny urge to walk down the streets of Paris, when its raining....

O yeah, cathy mi dearest grad nite had a couple of timing errors cos of adam for da grad nite but on mi part all went smooth sailing....hahaha ges wad? i realli was composed except for a lil headache tt kept buggin mi head...o ya haha ur sis kept counting down the hrs to the mayhem in front of me but was later pleasantly surprised cos of mi composure!! realli did mizz not having u arnd :( ....but o well i'll cya for the next one aniways!! HUGZZZ

 

 

to whom it may concern: maybe, maybe not....but this time i'll be ready for you!! I dun't luv u, llike i luved u yestdae!!

if i had eyes at the back of mi head,....

wow wen ur feeling shitty, music always helps....<insert drumroll here>and da music tt's soothing mi soul currently has got to be songs from duffy!! oooh and i luv tt song from The chronicles of Narnia 2, the one right b4 the credits. The call by regina spektor......AWESOME track!!

Man too bad i can't put like clips of mi fav songs like a player widget form over here...hmm tings to add to mi blog a music widget tt's user-friendly and by user i do mean ME...cos its realli hard for me to add music into widgets!!

A death certificate

Its beeen eons since i've slept so well...yesh tt's rite. i finally post this after a gd 14 hr slp! man u have no idea how tired i've become. golly jeez been working soo much i  feel soo tired!! i've even contemplated if act sch is bttr den work....

the last grad nite went over with a couple of glitches. and i must say this 3rd camp was da most HORRENDOUS i've seen thru....o man o man but rantings aside it was worrying to see mi dear cathy so affected by it all. After reading her blog i could associate it with the frustrations that just illuminated from her face..O cathy chilll la babe, ur too young to be stressed out like tt. Go live ur life freely and not shoulder so many responsibilities. haiz...well like wad ur sis told me, i gotta breathe more miself!! well soon all this mayhem will be over and all tt remains is da nostalgic yells and finger-pointing...wait shit i ain't gonna miss tt one bit...

Moving on..i've realised mi life has become soo boring...i need to go more often as such! from next wk onz i'm gonna try..o wait i'm not supp to say try...ok I'll do mi very best(isn't tt da same as trying....o WADever!!) to go out at least twice a wk!!

And with all da free i spent at home, i've realised i haven't been strummin on mi guitar for quite a bit..hmmm aniways gotta enjoy mi 'holiday'...wad an irony!..........back to the chronicles of narnia: Prince Caspian...

love in dis club

What a wkend! had mi second grad nite on Sunday and finally FINALLY 2 CAMPS DOWN...1 currently running den 2 more!! mi god i make it sound like da damn exams la. den again they're prob da same in terms of stress level. ahh and a pleasant surprise: mi lil dearie Cathl€€n popped by and not empty-handed mind you...but with a bag of love(subway cookies to be exact)....AWWWWWWW

O yesh and soon tt'll add onto mi list of nicks: lioncub! hahaha o man mizz u much much cathy can't wait for ur next visit!!

well its been a realli crappy week for me...and telling miself its gonna be a gd mng b4 i step out to work hasn't realli helped much..by the end of the day i keep wondering why i work so hard for!! haiz...o well ges sumtings u wunt realli noe why or wen rite?? aniways its xinjie's last day on friday and da new gal's oreadi here!! well i'm def gonna miss her...but o well she's gg to a bttr place den us soo gd luck to her....

ok enuff of da demoralising stuff...o wait..there's more...RESULTS OUT IN an hr's time...o gd lord i seriously hope it all turns out fine....haiz omg so much stress i wunder how n why i'm still sane!!

awesome.....

whoa its been eons since i've blogged...man da past week has been one hell of a bitch, but finally i got a break today. YESH FINALLY i say this cos i just realised today was my 1st leave day in like 2 weeks. Yup its been work, work WORK for me lately and although i'm starting to get realli tired of work, i actually felt a lil lost when i dint have to alight at tanjong pagar todae. which reminds me from next month onwards, i'm sticking to takin the bus back cos i cannot stand da crowded trains with a total lack of privacy. Sori ah but i'm just a bus person.

Well i dint like totally take a break today, i actually wanted to drop by the AKLC at Tampines(cos gd ol desmond forgot to get da brochures on time) and ended up helping out chris and zhongkie. managed to sell one book and MEET JINGYIIIIIIII....wow its been ages since i've seen her..omg it was great cos finally cud bitch to sum1 who act noes and therefore gives a shit abt wad i'm bitchin abt. haiz man i realli miss mi old part-timer bunch!! aniways here's a short crazy video as we were playin with the helium-filled balloons: -->

and da scary part abt me working soo long under ops: evtime i see stg missing i immediately tally a supply list in mi head. for eg: i realised mi house had run out of cotton buds, next thing i know i'm mentally tallyin wad's da quantity i need to order......JEEZ if tt's not trauma for u i dunno wad is....Man i realli hope i get some reali gd remunerations soon cos working at AK as ops is like earning minimal wage. sumtimes i wunder is it worth skipping mi minor just to help out irish!! o well i'm a man who keeps to his word....and let karma deal wif da rest!!

Just came back from an indian wedding, mi cuz's one(another thing i haven't done in ages). Wish him and his bride a happy marriage and ever-lasting love. wow it realli was amazing cos i just switched back to being...here's a surprise...an INDIAN! yesh was running around preparing stuff and once again mi parents became da supervisors of the whole show. and i must say it got me thinking....what if i actually fell for an indian gal and had an indian wedding....hmmmm...HMMMMM.hahahahaha ok i bttr stop rite there b4 mi frens die of shock!! LOL

OOOH I MIZZZ MI CATHLEEEEEEEN...hope i can see her tmw!!

celebrity chick!!

hmm not bad 2 days ago had a momentous preview session. NOT A SINGLE KOKUP....all went smoothly although da signups were worth mentioning, the highlite of the nite was ivy lee and daughter came to da preview.. and the best part she signed up!! hahaha i dint even noe it was her wen i ushered her in cos her face so black i tot she was one of those diff-2-deal-wif parent! but not bad wen i was settling her payment and stuff she was all cool..prob dun wanna raise up an alarm tt a celebrity was here.

which brings me to mi next pt, imagine how stressful it must be to live a celeb lifestyle esp wen you have kids..haiz come on ppl instead of ooglin or whispering loud exclaimations of their presence, les jus lve it at a glance and get on wif our lives! their humans too, i mean its cos of idiots like dat who turn celebrities into nonchalant or even stuck-up individuals when actually they are in fact cool ppl or even gd parents who just want a normal life for their kids!

Well just incase u ask me y i nvr take photograph??.siao ah if she complains to adam, there goes mi job ok!! i dun wanna be fired for stg as stupid as tt!! i did her autograph though...5 of them....i mean she had to sign da forms and stuff wad!!! LOL...

HAIZ...lately been soo shittly stressed cos of sooooo many factors! now i totally agree wif mi parter-in-crime's msn nick: WORK IS WEARING ME OUT....SOOOO TRU!!! haiz i miss mi own laughter, can't even rem wen's da last time i laughed how sad is tt la!! o well, wad does not kill us makes stronger rite?? i hate using cliche lines as a morale booster lol...but ok la we just need more manpower! and i must say i'm eternally grateful to all those who've helped or volunteered to help us ESP mi marketing side aka MY TROOPS...ahahah thks pearlyn n daniel i've great respect for u guys man!!!

OH and how can i forget the luvly ladies in mi row....whenever i'm stressed, they nvr fail to cheer me up whether be it thru our secret msn convos or the numerous colorful convos pasted all over mi cubicle!! hahah thks mi dears xinjie and lorraine....and the crazyily funny josephine!! muahaha i luv scaring da shit outa her!! O of cos the 2 new interns from NTU, Hui Sze and Jon who introduced us to other places to eat other den ZAI PENG!!!

PRaWNing pRAk

hahah yesh and finally the prawning photos are out....well last last mon was mi company's lifestyle day and due to mi kind boss irish, i cud tag along!! hahaha we went to DIN TAI FUNG for lunch...YESH XIAO LONG BAO HMMMMMMMMMMM...droooooooooooool... hahaha and da fried rice NICEEEE....haha all in all awesome lunch...den came da highlight of the day: Prawning @ bishan...and ges wad i was like so skeptical of prawning but i must say huiwen, prawning actually is kinda fun..maybe cos i cot 8 in mi 1st dae!!! lol and here are the pics...

 

 

 

 

** DUN SAY MI BLOG NO PHOTOS HOR **

Bleeding love

But I don't care what they say

Why is it that i still feel like running up to you, to embrace your frame
I'm in love with you

to get that fuzzy feeling as i breathe in your scent.

They try to pull me away

the angels around my heart keep telling me to let go of you,

But they don't know the truth

but if only that were easy to do
My heart's crippled by the vein

Will i ever find the strength to break away from you
That I keep on closing

but i fear breaking the promise i held so true
You cut me open and I

is society to blame for our disassociation?
Keep bleeding

or was a factor of our own lack of foresight
Keep, keep bleeding love

i just can't help but wonder,
I keep bleeding

if only....
I keep, keep bleeding love

if only...
Keep bleeding

if only i could be eternalLY yours....
Keep, keep bleeding love

i'm always on da move

whoa it has been ages since i've last blogged, and i've realised since i've starting workin i haven't realli had time to blog but hey I"M SICK OF COMIN UP WIF EXCUSES. SO here i am, typing this blog on the one day i dun have to go to da office!

aniways, getting back to da juicy stuff in life...AI CARAMBA MIA...i was working soo much i totally forgot that yestdae was the date for the REAL SINGAPORE FREEZE. man i joined the facebk group, all excited and stuff and totally forgot abt it... O man! what a waste o well i'll wait for da next one...can't wait for the video hope it looks gd!

hmm apparently it seems ev1 tinks i'm crazy, exploited wen they hear of mi working hrs. Chill mi peeps i noe and understand ur concern and deeply(DEEP DEEP-ly) appreciate ur concern. but ya i'm doin fine i mean it sure beats rotting at home and doin nuthing but finishing up on GTA:san andreas. work is sure stressful but hey the ppl there just make it even more managable we do have our times of fun plus wen one needs help we're always arnd to help each other. like i said at AK the perks are adhoc, so evthing's in balance!!

And yesh, if u tink i'm free from work on dis Vesak dae holiday tink again!! i've saved mi stuff in mi email so i can access it on da go!! i'll be gg for recording later which is hilarious cos i can't rem mi songs anymore so its gonna be quite interesting there!! hahahaha ok gotta run now...den again wen have i ever stopped??

i'm just tired......

haiz....fark....foook...cheespie...fish....argh since i'm at it i mite as well go for gold: FUCKIN HELL.....haiz i'm finally getting weary of work. it never seems to get lesser and da responsiblities keep increasing ever-more...jeez i've been workin so much dis wk i can't even remember how long i've rested. O and btw wen i mean dis wk i mean wkdaes PLUS WKENDS...as mi roomie aptly puts it: "eh dei, how come ur always working, and when ur not ur out prawning?" haiz...o well compared to those other full-timers they've got a lot more to deal wif but hey compared from where i came from....i'm entitled to whine la!! like seriously its not like i'm being unreasonable...

O well i ges tt's part of life so although i whine cos i'm tired i'm still ok wif work cos well....there are various other perks along the road. Just yestdae, part of the Adults team and the kids team went out for drinks since we ended so late and man i must say i need more sessions like tt man...damn fun!! esp the gay bangla waiter who keeps eyeing aaron!!!

A lot of pressure is on me now just cos i've worked there for a relatively looong time, but da ting is wa lan last time part-time realli do very little lei...and pearlyn tinks i'm too kanchiong! OF COURSE la i mean officially i've been here for like 2 wks la and thkfully today's preview WAS SOO MUCH BTTR totally no kokups!! well done...soo proud of miself til...kena kokup while filling up mi IRF forms. So sian apparently ev mistake is 1 dollar so ya there goes 4 bucks to andrew's teddy bear savings bear!! :(

On the brightside, the ppl i work with are a blast so i must say tt's a great help for keeping my sanity together.with all tt said when it comes down to da golden qn: SCH OR WORK??

well if u'd known me long enuff, i dun realli tink i need to say out mi answer..........hahaha.......

ok i'm getting there...

hahah ok work todae wasn't too bad!! i mean ya there were kok ups on mi side but nuthing too major. finally loosin a bit of da kanchiong-ness now tt i've run through most of stuff and noe da cues i need to prepare. ok hopefulli i can only get better from here on...challenge for tmw: handle payments!! lol...well tmw's mi last chance to get zai cos from next wk onz i'm more or less on mi own.

hmm damnnit den cos of work cudn't go off to ching's party. sianz hope she has a blast hopefulli i'll make it up to her over dinner one dae wif stacey too.

whilst at preview saw a familiar face todae: Cathleen!! hahaha one of da da junior camp coach. hahah bubbly as ever, she drew for me bumper stickers of slogans.wuahaha mi 1st work of art to be placed up on mi barren table! o ya and i can't believe we act compared whose pants were looser...lol and i aint gonna say who won?! :P

wow working from da day all da way thru da nite has realli taken its toll on me. lookin forward to next wk seems like a lotsa gonna be gg on!! hopefulli i come back wif photos or even bttr videos!! haven't put up media on mi blog for ages!!

I HATE DA 4-LETTER 'L' WORD

dumbfounded

haiz work yest was kinda...wat's tt word....errr... FUNKY is all i can say. had mi 1st event yestdae but got so many kok ups dint feel too gd abt it..lucky no parents complain but still wa lau i hate last min stuff. i hate to kanchiong and run all over da place and settle matters last min. O man, well ok hopefulli yestdae's fiasco doesn't repeat itself next fri or dis time ass gets grilled on da line!! haiz nvr mind tink positive wad's done has been done les learn from our mistakes and gain experience. why i feel so affected by it?? i dunno maybe cos i felt partly responsible or maybe its just a Virgo thing!!haha....

Wow, i can say i'm kinda glad tt da honeymoon period is over and mi work is finally picking up along wif mi number of duities. Am i stressed?? not realli....i mean seriously i was hired to do work if i'm gonna sit on mi ass and be underutilized i cud have found a job elsewhere rite!! at first i tot i onli workin here to get more money(to settle da stupid black cloud above mi head) but den again i tink i'd prob do dis job more so to help irish!!  so to all mi lovelies i've been neglecting pls book me in advance and i'll try to work out mi free daes, so sori if i inconvience any of yal!!

HAHAHa its amazing how much closer ppl get day by day, its a gd ting though and hopefulli da bonds will be strengthened wen we hang out in our after-work activities(planned by lauchau for sinchau). On da brightside, Mon is lifestyle dae and we're going...PRAWNING.hahaha ya img tt i haven't even tried fishin and now i must catch stg smaller..wah piang KO...eh du we use a rod to catch prawns?? how dumb is tt?? ur prawn so small jus use net la!! o well one man's pleasure is another man's bewilderment...ok gtg run for mi next preview!! JIA YOU......

Your nuthing but a lie.....

whoa damn, once again i've neglected updating mi blog. well les see...hmmm...exams ended on da 30th...HOLI CRAP its not even 2 wks since mi last paper...man omg i can't believe tt jus a wk ago i finished mi paper went Chiongin, had a BBQ on fri went to da gym on mon and back at work on tue...Time is such a weird commodity!!

O well enuff of the bewilderment, back to da main story: after years of part-timing(not to be confused wif 2-timing) i'm finally a part time full timer at AKLTG. ahaha ehh Ah cai tt means now u get 2 be mi part-timer..nice...I CUT UR PAY...hahah mi bosses fav line!! oooh hope she recovers from her flu soon i rather she KP me in a gd mood den wen she's sick!!

it seems i've quite far away from da kids division but no worries made 2 new pals...mi 2 new tok kok buddies: Xin jie and Lorraine. haha they're realli funni, unfortunately they have to tolerate dis irritating Ah neh kachau-ing them, o well i mite seem free now k but mi impending doom is nearing soon so ya....enjoyin mi freedom while it lasts!! had a gd grp lunch todae at some nearby(which was relatively quite far act) zhi char place.

 

My 2 precious Fs know what i jus did...i'm reali sori i still dunno y i did it...dun't wori i wunt go back there u can be sure of tt....evtime i tink i can just do it...a voice at da back of mi head keeps askin me if i'm realli sure abt tt...

~ evtime i tink i've gotten over you, da warmth of ur touch keeps grippin on mi heart...pry u away, alas i must! ~

                             Haiz