wow its been such a looong time since i've blogged..well apologies for tt been real busy with hall stuff so dint realli have much time for pretty much anyting else....
dis past 2 wks have been pretty stressful for me with mi life ruled by the minutehand. Patience, faith and love. hectic schedules realli drain u of ur energy and makes u wunder y u even exist....but i've managed to finally grab some time off and actually reflect on stuff...yesh its been a realli loong time since i've reflected and actually sat down under the stars and had an intellectual convo.
these memories and more get dug out as i dive deeper into mi memory banks and search for songs of mi yester years in youtube. standfast"carcrashes", layla kaliff"shakespeare in love", Kid rock, Nine days, Savage garden and the Cranberries.
Well QP finally ended, and suddenly mi life has become empty once again! Back to having QP withdrawal symptoms, back to studying for tests and projects and lab reports and not being able to use QP as an excuse to procrastinate, back to leaving back on a fri and wondering how fast the wkend wud fly by, back to stoning at the top of the escalator and watching it part its steps like a cascading waterfall, back to wondering how painful it wud be to jump infront of a moving vehicle, back to.....back to.....back to who i was b4? nope....its abt time i changed, a new direction has been set, and i follow it knowing mi next destination is onroute.
As i close my eyes and take a deep breath, i reassure myself that its all gonna be alrite! i've done it b4, jus gotta keep on walking down that narrow dark tunnel cos no matter wad happens we can't stop living our lives to da fullest. It seems that my lifestyle is abt to change drastically as well, i gotta stop listening to RnB cos it always stings me inside jus tinking of heading out to a club! haiz...perhaps itz for da best....O well, like mi mum always says, evthing has its time!!
Emotions always are strongest with da ones whom u are in constant contact with, and as i end my journey wif QP i believe so does mi fire to pursue her. Will i ever luv again??
P.N: (which act stands for Personal note) i dunt give a rat ass abt any1 kp-ing abt mi purple desktop being soo indian...screw u i lurve purple k...it has tt velvety, sensual feel to it!!
My feelings for you have finally died. am i sad abt it?? happy?? no lei i'm feeling so indifferent...i finally feel like i can breathe again! <<BREATHES>> lol too bad i dun have huge nostrils!!..aniways i hope you'll find da right guy for u soon!!
